exposed

Following up on my last post, I had a really nice masturbation/aneros session. When I've been locked up in my cb6000 for a few days, my fantasies usually turn a little more extreme. This time, it was a lot more extreme. Still, I liked the "story" I made up around it. It involved me entering a chastity contract for 10 years, and having genital piercings to ensure my chastity. The couple putting me into chastity weren't my master and mistress or anything, they were simply my keyholders. Then later in the story I meet a mistress who "buys" my chastity contract, and trains me to be her slave. Including very extreme things (well, stuff like permanent collar, piercings, tattoos, branding). A lot of things I would never do/allow to be done to me in real life. That's why they call it fantasy, right? But I liked the story, I might write it down in full someday. I think my fantasy began when I saw a picture of a guy with a prince albert, and it was such a beautiful piercing and just the right size of jewelry. I always said I would never get any kind of genital piercing, but now I'm not too sure anymore.


Last night, I was having an extremely good aneros session. I was very horny, again thinking about that story and some other fantasies. But after a while, I just stopped, put on my cb6000 and went to bed. I wanted to orgasm, but then I also knew I'd lose that wonderful horny feeling I had. I was pretty tired as well so I did manage to get to sleep. Next morning I didn't feel that horny, but as the day went on, it definitely got worse. Or better, really.

First thing I did was something I planned to do a long time ago: taking some "sexy" pictures of myself. I was inspired by a whole bunch of pictures I saw on flickr, and decided to do my own take on it. At first it didn't quite work out (and I'm sure one of my neighbours saw me parading around the house in my speedos, holding a camera and taking pictures of myself. Embarrassing. And not in a sexy way). Later I was able to take some good ones though. I'd love to do some more, and preferably outside ones, but my garden is far too visible for that (I live in a residential area with houses and small appartment blocks, the people living above the first floor can definitely see me - not to mention the downstairs neighbour, who can see the garden from his living room!). There are other possibilities (nudist beach nearby), but then I'll need someone to take the pictures for me. Being single sucks, yeah.

Anyway, there was a picture I was particularly proud of. I always take several pictures of one setting, but this time, the first picture was immediately the best one. Behold:



Yes that's me. Hi. Like I said on flickr, I don't consider myself very pretty or sexy or anything, and usually I can't stand seeing pictures that have my face. But this one...I like. Yes, I expect comments like "why aren't you smiling?" and stuff, but I don't really like my smile. Anyway, I think I like it because of the vulnerability and simplicity of the shot. It's a very natural situation. It's not porn or anything extreme. Just a guy, sitting on a toilet. Yeah.
At first I was going to hold my hand up towards the camera in a "no pictures!" kinda way, and I did take a few shots like that, but this felt so much better. You know at first I didn't even notice that you could see my penis! Really, it wasn't even my intention to show it, it just happened. Really!
In some ways it is a failed photo - can't see the top of my head, nor my feet, but that's really more due to the bathroom being so damn small. And yes, the bathroom is ugly. And I could lose some weight around my belly.

I also don't know how much longer I'll keep that picture here - tomorrow I might completely change opinion about all this. Right now I actually feel...liberated having a picture like that out there. I'm a closet nudist for sure, but I change opinion all the time about showing myself to people like this.

Wow, I talked far too much about that. Good thing no-one reads this...right?