December 31, 2015

London visit december 2015

This was my first visit to London in ten months, so I had some catching up to do :)
I'll write about things per event/day, to keep things somewhat orderly...

Boys and Sirs: this is a event for spanking/CP lovers at the Hoist we've been to a few times. We brought a few things with us, which were put to good use. At one point I was tied agaist a wall with my arms up, with the big metal collar (which stayed on until we left) and leather hood. Sir gave me a nice beating, arse and back, with various tools... and he also decided to rip my underwear to pieces. This was rather humiliating; I knew we were being watched by several guys so they also saw I was wearing my chastity device :O Master exposing me as his collared and locked pain slave... Okay it was kinda horny when I think about it again :)
Pics from later that evening:

Visit to Tskinboot: just like with my Master I hadn't seen him in a very long time and it was nice to just see each other and spend some time together. Of course he wanted to tie me up, and you know I can never say no to a man holding ropes lol. I had a haircut first, nice and short, the way it should be apparently... I was turned into a somewhat of a rubber gimp; rubber jocks, rubber vest and rubber hood, before he tied me up. I'll let the pics do the talking:

I got my "reward" at the end, second load of the day shot down my throat (first one was from my Master in the morning). Apart from that (hehe) it was a great evening and it's always fun to spend time with Tskin whether I'm in or out of his ropes.

Thursday: busy day! First some pup play, but again the stupid tail kept falling out :( So I didn't have the "full" experience heh. Related to that: earlier that week Sir gave me an awesome gift: a dogtag, with my pup name (Peperami!) and his address on it, in case I ever get lost :) I wore it since then, together with my tag with barcode and number.

 I had to set up the iron stocks (wrist and neck stocks, I'm sure there's a picture of it in one of my previous entries). I got quite a good beating with a variety of instruments while being in them, one of the best ever in terms of intensity and build-up. The position and the rigidness of the stocks also adds to the discomfort, not a bad thing to get into that "I'm just a piece of slave-meat and have to endure whatever my Master throws at me" headspace :)

I was allowed to relax a bit afterwards; that meant being in a pretty loose hogtie, still hooded, on the sofa, while Master was upstairs with his other boy. I really really loved this, being helpless and stowed away (but still comfortable, I dozed off a few times actually). I guess this appealed to my kidnap fantasies I've had since my childhood.
When I was allowed out of that, I had to go upstairs and Sir fucked me in front of the other boy :( It hurt! I'm not used to being fucked and it isn't really one of my favourite activities (that includes anything anal), so I just have to endure stuff like this :) It was somewhat humiliating being fucked in front of the other boy, who is used to that treatment and probably thought I was being a drama queen...

Friday: Fetishbound! Unfortunately Sir didn't come along, but I had fun and it was a great night. So weird -and amazing- that I hadn't been there in 10 months but people still recognised me and made me feel very welcome. Another reason why it's by far my favourite kink event.
And I certainly wasn't bored, Tskin tied me up (see below, more pics on the site), and later in the evening his lad had some fun with me, which included boot licking and getting a nice beating - to show someone else how a good boy takes a beating, ha! Anyway, really fun evening, happy memories...

Saturday: new experiences. We've talked about sounding and I wanted to try it. I was locked in the neck and wrist irons (really love those) and then Sir tried some sounds on me. It takes some getting used to but altogether it wasn't an unpleasant experience...which means I want to do it again. I think I mostly liked the humiliation aspect of it; basically getting my penis fucked by a metal rod, and since I was locked in the irons I was at the mercy of my Master...who, as always, takes good care of me. Definitely a positive experience, I'm happy we tried something new and found yet another thing to add to the wishlist for next time!

Sunday: last full day, so time for some classics :) I was mummified and we had some wax play. Some electro play as well but again, I don't think it's my thing at all. Took a little nap, something that happens often when I'm mummified actually.

Later I was allowed to have a wank, still wrapped up but with my hands free. First wank in two weeks, as always I'm locked in chastity whenever I'm in London. But right after my wank, Sir flipped me over and started fucking me :( Luckily it was fairly short but still hardly enjoyable. I have to admit, we talked about doing this a few days before, and I agreed, because I was horny at the time and it sounded kind of hot... but it isn't when it actually happens. I consider it a positive experience though, because it felt like another step in my submission to Sir... being fucked when he wants to fuck me, regardless of how I feel about it. It certainly made me feel more like I'm just a slave being used for his Master's pleasure, his property to use and abuse.

Oh and also got a hard farewell beating right after that... again closing with a classic: the evil cane! It left some nice marks as a reminder of my time in London.

It was a really really good stay, had some good scenes, of course the downside of being into so many kink things is never having enough time to do them all! So there's plenty on the wishlist for next time, as always.

December 23, 2015

A Christmas miracle!

First of all, I've been to London earlier this month. There will be a fairly substantial blog entry about my kinky adventures there soon. This entry is about something else.

In the past month or so I've been chatting to a guy interested in bondage, and more specifically kidnap scenarios that involve being gagged and lots of tape. I told him about the material I have, showed him some pics, discussed some scenarios... after all that he was very keen on meeting up with me.

Last Sunday we finally made it happen, and pretty much everything that could go wrong, went wrong. And that includes a third party walking in on us (luckily, there wasn't much to see yet). We had very limited time as well, so we had some very simple and fairly short play in my bedroom.

I secured him to a chair, handcuffed at the back. I applied some duct tape to his mouth and his legs. Added a blindfold as well. With that all set, I could explore his body and see how he reacted to my touch. And he reacted beautifully. The pre-cum was flowing freely, and it was a beautiful sight seeing it through his white briefs. I loved teasing his cock through the fabric and seeing his briefs get wetter and wetter.

I untied him and let him masturbate, and on special request I wore my balaclava (he seemed to like that a lot). And with that happy ending I had to let him go.

Despite it being so short, and the false start or two, it was actually really enjoyable. He's a fun guy to play with, and interesting to talk to, so I hope to see him again. We already made some vague meet up plans for next month, let's see how things will be then :)

On a more personal note, this was the first time I played with a "new" guy in well over a year, and since it went so well, it was a real boost to my self-confidence. For the past two years I've been somewhat avoiding meeting up with new people because I felt I wouldn't be good enough, both as a top or a sub. Now that I (finally!) had a good experience, I'm starting to have a more positive outlook on things. If everything goes well with this guy, I'll be able to develop my skills further and get more confident in them (for example, I complained to the guy that I'm rubbish at rope bondage because I can't find anyone who wants to be a model for a newbie, he just replied "well, practice on me then!").

We'll see how things develop further next year but at the very least I'm ending a somewhat kink-dry year on a positive note :)

May 3, 2015

blog weirdness

Last month (April), I had the most amount of visitors ever on this blog! Except... I noticed some weird things on my stats page. Most of my visitors seem to come from Russian sites that have nothing to do with the content of my blog.

The month before that, I already disabled non-captcha-verified comments, because I got a spam message at least once a day. But now there's this. I doesn't hurt my blog, but for a stat-obsessed person like me, it's annoying that I can't see where my real visitors are coming from.

I was wondering if any bloggers who read this are experiencing this as well?

Anyway, thanks for the people who still have my blog on their reading list. Special shoutout to and I still get most of my visitors from their site. Thanks guys!

Preparing a "normal" blog entry next, I spent a lot of time in chastity the last two months, and it was a rather...interesting experience!

March 2, 2015

February London visit

It was time for another visit to my Master, last time I was in London was July last year. And that wasn't the best of visits to be honest... so time for another go.

On the evening of my arrival, I was treated with some face slapping and gut punching!!! :( Yes, that's how my Master shows how happy he is to see me. To be honest, I'm starting to like the gut punching, in a "look how though I can be!" kind of way. Even more when it's in public, ha. And obviously I got the necessary before-bed beating, something I usually hate the first few nights but always end up loving it and begging for more (though this time it sadly didn't happen every night!)

A notable beating was the one with the big wooden brush. Having been on the receiving end a few times already, I still hate it and I consider it to be the worst spanking instrument in my Master's arsenal by far. It hurts (duh) but the impact is really bad and the pain lingers longer as well, which makes repeated blows really really really uncomfortable. So yeah, my reaction to it wasn't that of a good boy and I got some corner time afterwards as well.

One evening I wanted to surprise him by being a pup by the time he got home from work. This was only half a success; that stupid pup tail kept falling out, I tried securing it with rope but it didn't work, and it fell out very shortly after he came home. As a tail-less pup, it just wasn't the same for me and I didn't get into the pup-headspace the way I had on previous occasions. I don't really consider myself a pup but there is certainly a part of me that likes it.

I was invited by TSkinBoot on Thursday, and... well, I could write all about it, but a video says more than a thousand words, no? See it here, and decide for yourself how good this scene was (spoiler: SO good).
Apart from that though, it was nice spending time with him, he is a valued friend and it was nice to just relax a bit after the scene. I mean, we usually meet up at a club, which is nice of course but meeting a friend at home is always more... more, you know? So I was very happy he invited me.
Bonus picture:

Friday, my Master invited some boys over in the afternoon... but I was not allowed to have any fun, heh. I was mummified to a chair, and stayed like that for about 3 hours, while Master and the boys did their thing. It wasn't the most comfortable experience, but if I had a pillow for my back, I think I could've held out another hour or two. 

After that it was time go to to Fetishbound... but I almost literally had to drag Master along, even though one of the boys was keen to go as well. In any case, -I- had fun, hehe. It was a nice night, lots of hot guys (especially skinheads!) about, I got to spank the other boy for a bit, I got spanked myself, and Master belted me :O The poor boy seeing this was cowering in fear, "oh no, oh no!", but quite honestly, compared to the beating I got with the brush earlier that week, the belt was nothing. I mean, it was not nothing, it was actually quite fun being hit by it. So yeah, it was a fun night out. Oh and liked wearing this rubber shirt I found in Master's house, it went well with my usual boots-camo trousers combination.

Saturday was Valentine's day (bweurk), I went to Collared in the evening, in general it wasn't that interesting as Fetishbound, but Tskin did a really nice rope suspension on me, and later he tied up a super-cute boy, he looked so sweet and innocent, yet some pervert tied him up and made him lick his boots... poor boy. (I might have had a little crush on him).

Sunday evening it was time for another scene... I set up the new stocks, then was locked in them, hooded, electro on my balls and (locked) cock, and wax poured over my back :( It hurt! More than when I experimented with wax myself ages ago hehe. I didn't like the electro much either, so this really felt more like a punishment than anything else.

There was also one memorable (in a good way) piss play scene. Master was in the sofa watching tv, I was on the floor in front of him. I ask him if I can use the toilet. He says no. Instead, he uses his foot to push down on my tummy, making that feeling of having to piss even worse. He continues doing that for a bit, then finally he takes me to the bathroom, and orders me to piss in the bathtub. Now, I have a very shy bladder, which means I really can't pee when someone's near me or watching me. He just continues to tease me, showing me pictures and videos of piss play, making me drink a big glass of coke, and eventually pissing on me, with me having to drink it. I am absolutely bursting but I still can't pee!! He threatens to send me to bed like this. He leaves the bathroom for 2 seconds, and, yes, I start peeing from the moment he left. I was on my knees and he orders me to stand so he can see me piss, but I can't, need to be on my knees heh. Then I pissed for a good minute or something, that felt good hehe. Master was disappointed and next time I'll really have to pee in front of him or suffer the consequences:O

That was about all the play I got. Apart from us suffering from a cold at different stages of my stay, which impacted what we did in terms of play, it was a really good visit. Compared to the one last summer I felt much more relaxed and at home, and the feeling that I actually have a place there. We didn't do everything on our wishlist (there was supposed to be rope play and cigar play for example) but that's something we can do next time...

Also, I am still wearing my chastity device, I'm in week 4 now of continuous wear... I wasn't allowed to cum when I was in London, but I did get to cum (with permission) at home. The key is still in London though! (and I think he actually lost it...) So who knows when I'll get unlocked :( Evil.

March 1, 2015

Important - updated Blogger porn policy

Earlier this week, a lot of us with blogs on got a message from Google that it would no longer allow blogs with nudity and sexual content, and that existing blogs would be forcibly made private.

Well, a lot of people rightly complained to Google about this, and now they're backing down (...for now.)
This is the latest update:

An update on the Blogger porn content policy

This week, we announced a change to Blogger’s porn policy stating that blogs that distributed sexually explicit images or graphic nudity would be made private.

We’ve received lots of feedback about making a policy change that impacts longstanding blogs, and about the negative impact this could have on individuals who post sexually explicit content to express their identities.

We appreciate the feedback. Instead of making this change, we will be maintaining our existing policies.
What this means for blog owners
  • Commercial porn will continue to be prohibited.
  • If you have pornographic or sexually explicit content on your blog, you must turn on the adult content setting so a warning will show. If a blog with adult content is brought to Google’s attention and the content warning is not active, we will turn on the warning interstitial for you. If this happens repeatedly, the blog may be removed.
  • If you don't have sexually explicit content on your blog and you're following the rest of the Blogger Content Policy, you don't need to make any changes to your blog.
So, guys, at least for now, there's no need to move your blog or, worse, to abandon it entirely. I've been seeing a lot of people posting that they're closing down their blogs, which is really a shame. I can understand you want to leave Blogger after being treated like this, but don't let this discourage you from sharing your kink/sex life with others. I've been using Blogger for many years now, I built up a nice follower's list with many interesting blogs and sites, and it's such a shame to see so many great blogs disappear. I'm sure not many people read this, but please reconsider. Especially if your blog is more than just reposts of internet porn. In my opinion we need more people to talk about kink, and sharing personal experiences, and not just masturbate to it.

And hey, Google? Don't be evil.

January 20, 2015

BDSM test

Since everyone has been doing this on twitter this past week, I couldn't stay behind:

== Results from ==
100% Bondage Receiver
96% Degradation Receiver
88% Masochist
84% Submissive
80% Girl/Boy
80% Slave
80% Switch
79% Experimentalist
77% Brat
75% Bondage Giver
66% Degradation Giver
66% Non-monogamist
66% Sadist
60% Brat Tamer
59% Exhibitionist
59% Voyeur
58% Dominant
58% Master/Mistress
54% Daddy/Mommy
53% Primal (Prey)
51% Pervert
47% All-Rounder
47% Primal (Predator)
21% Vanilla
See my results online at

Everything is pretty high compared to some other results I've seen, and Bondage receiver being right at the top with a perfect score is accurate - didn't really need a test to know what my number 1 kink is! I plan to do another blog entry about the origins of my bondage obsession some time soon.
Degradation receiver as second is a more recent kink I guess, and something I'm only 100% comfortable with doing when it's my Sir doing it to me. I consider piss play to fall under this term as well, so it's naturally pretty high. Although, the next three, Masochist, Submissive and Boy are rightfully in my top 5 as well.
Switch is high as well, but that's something that goes with ups and downs, and I have been in a slightly more dominant mood lately than "normal".

Anyway, the test doesn't go into a lot of detail or anything, but it's a fun distraction for a few minutes (and an excuse to post something here...)

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