London visit August 2016

A little later than it should be, but it's better than nothing! *looks at the other kink blogs that haven't been updated in ages*

So, mid-August I was finally allowed to stay with my Master. I hadn't been there since December the previous year, so I was very eager to see him again.

The evening I arrived, there was time for a little induction: Master gave me a haircut (very short) and ordered me to trim my pubic region as well. No chastity device this time, for the first time ever I think. He also made it clear my place was at his feet (which I don't mind, especially if I can smell his socks and feet).

The day after it was Fetishbound. I wanted to wear something else than my usual boots-camos-polo combination, so I bought cheap jeans and bleached them. With, let's say moderate, success. In any case I was happy to wear something new and was now in "full" skinhead gear.
The evening itself though, didn't turn out to go as well as I hoped. Master didn't go with me. Even though I saw many familiar faces, I felt like a stranger there and didn't really initiate conversation with anyone. Lots of doubts in my head about not fitting in, etc. I know it was silly of me but that's how I felt. Of course there are always some people that make me feel welcome, TSkinBoot and his lad as well (he always give me some attention... a lot of times pretty painful attention hehe). TSkin also tied me up later and gave me a firm beating, and my free-for-once cock also got attention :O I said this before, but I really can't stand people sucking my cock, it's still such a weird feeling for me. I'm so sensitive and the sensation is worse than being tickled. It's hard to stay hard (ha!) when experiencing a sensation this intense :(

Saturday Master and I went to Boys & Sirs. Not my favourite event and definitely not my favourite crowd, but we had some fun anyway. Master had a fair bit of fun with other guys as well, including my bro-slave and another guy I've played with before. It was a fairly hot evening, especially when I wore a gas mask hehe.

Sunday I wasn't feeling that good and had to cancel going to a BBQ :( Probably a combination of eating something I wasn't used to combined with Master having given me a fairly hard belly punching! Felt better in the evening and went for a little poké-walk (which was all the rage then...funny how quickly hypes die).

Next few days were relatively low on kink play, but the weather was nice and I explored some Greater London areas like Hammersmith and Kingston. Which was really nice.

Thursday we went to SM gays, met TSkin there as well. Crowd was generally more to my liking, a fair number of skins and rubber gimps :) I was thoroughly abused and degraded though... Licking boots, having to crawl on the floor, having my nipples abused,... the torment was almost endless :P Even worse when TSkin tied me against the chair at the entrance, beat me, and eventually fucked me :( It was very humiliating for me to be tied and fucked like that "in public"... but yeah okay, when I think about it now I get hard hehe. But at that moment it was pretty uncomfortable to be tied and fucked in that position, and I never feel 100% safe/comfortable at clubs so there was that too. But would I do it again? Hmm... not by choice I guess, but when I'm tied up and gagged I don't have much choice do I?
I also loved that afterwards, Master told me he was so disappointed in me, being on display like I was the town whore or something hehe.

A fun scene we had at home was the "cockhead" scene. Over the past few months I regularly joked about fucking Master (which usually ended with him saying something like "with a cock as tiny as yours, I wouldn't even feel it!")
Well, after he mummified me, he taped a dildo to my forehead, and had some fun with it. Yeah. Took a pic of me in that position too. "Now I have proof you're a dickhead!" Can't deny it. And no you can't see the pic.

Anything else... I slept in the wrist irons one night. I was also pissed on several times. Always fun... I need to get better at drinking piss though. I would love a piss gag, so now you all know what to buy me for Christmas :P
I got to eat quite a bit of cum too, Master seemed to like me cleaning up after he had a wank, and sometimes shooting it straight into my mouth. I'm guessing part of this was to show that he can enjoy himself while I, not in chastity but still on a cum ban, couldn't. I was allowed to cum on the last day, but very unceremoniously, I wasn't allowed to pull it out, I had to cum inside my shorts. Better than nothing! It did leave quite a mess though...

That's all I can think of for now. Despite the fact we didn't play that much (but then, I'm a greedy bitch when it comes to play apparently) it was a very positive visit. Bit of a rough start maybe, but I was never bored and had fun even when I was on my own.
I certainly hope it won't take another nine months before I can go back though!

London visit december 2015

This was my first visit to London in ten months, so I had some catching up to do :)
I'll write about things per event/day, to keep things somewhat orderly...

Boys and Sirs: this is a event for spanking/CP lovers at the Hoist we've been to a few times. We brought a few things with us, which were put to good use. At one point I was tied agaist a wall with my arms up, with the big metal collar (which stayed on until we left) and leather hood. Sir gave me a nice beating, arse and back, with various tools... and he also decided to rip my underwear to pieces. This was rather humiliating; I knew we were being watched by several guys so they also saw I was wearing my chastity device :O Master exposing me as his collared and locked pain slave... Okay it was kinda horny when I think about it again :)
Pics from later that evening:

Visit to Tskinboot: just like with my Master I hadn't seen him in a very long time and it was nice to just see each other and spend some time together. Of course he wanted to tie me up, and you know I can never say no to a man holding ropes lol. I had a haircut first, nice and short, the way it should be apparently... I was turned into a somewhat of a rubber gimp; rubber jocks, rubber vest and rubber hood, before he tied me up. I'll let the pics do the talking:

I got my "reward" at the end, second load of the day shot down my throat (first one was from my Master in the morning). Apart from that (hehe) it was a great evening and it's always fun to spend time with Tskin whether I'm in or out of his ropes.

Thursday: busy day! First some pup play, but again the stupid tail kept falling out :( So I didn't have the "full" experience heh. Related to that: earlier that week Sir gave me an awesome gift: a dogtag, with my pup name (Peperami!) and his address on it, in case I ever get lost :) I wore it since then, together with my slaveregistry.net tag with barcode and number.

 I had to set up the iron stocks (wrist and neck stocks, I'm sure there's a picture of it in one of my previous entries). I got quite a good beating with a variety of instruments while being in them, one of the best ever in terms of intensity and build-up. The position and the rigidness of the stocks also adds to the discomfort, not a bad thing to get into that "I'm just a piece of slave-meat and have to endure whatever my Master throws at me" headspace :)

I was allowed to relax a bit afterwards; that meant being in a pretty loose hogtie, still hooded, on the sofa, while Master was upstairs with his other boy. I really really loved this, being helpless and stowed away (but still comfortable, I dozed off a few times actually). I guess this appealed to my kidnap fantasies I've had since my childhood.
When I was allowed out of that, I had to go upstairs and Sir fucked me in front of the other boy :( It hurt! I'm not used to being fucked and it isn't really one of my favourite activities (that includes anything anal), so I just have to endure stuff like this :) It was somewhat humiliating being fucked in front of the other boy, who is used to that treatment and probably thought I was being a drama queen...

Friday: Fetishbound! Unfortunately Sir didn't come along, but I had fun and it was a great night. So weird -and amazing- that I hadn't been there in 10 months but people still recognised me and made me feel very welcome. Another reason why it's by far my favourite kink event.
And I certainly wasn't bored, Tskin tied me up (see below, more pics on the site), and later in the evening his lad had some fun with me, which included boot licking and getting a nice beating - to show someone else how a good boy takes a beating, ha! Anyway, really fun evening, happy memories...

Saturday: new experiences. We've talked about sounding and I wanted to try it. I was locked in the neck and wrist irons (really love those) and then Sir tried some sounds on me. It takes some getting used to but altogether it wasn't an unpleasant experience...which means I want to do it again. I think I mostly liked the humiliation aspect of it; basically getting my penis fucked by a metal rod, and since I was locked in the irons I was at the mercy of my Master...who, as always, takes good care of me. Definitely a positive experience, I'm happy we tried something new and found yet another thing to add to the wishlist for next time!

Sunday: last full day, so time for some classics :) I was mummified and we had some wax play. Some electro play as well but again, I don't think it's my thing at all. Took a little nap, something that happens often when I'm mummified actually.

Later I was allowed to have a wank, still wrapped up but with my hands free. First wank in two weeks, as always I'm locked in chastity whenever I'm in London. But right after my wank, Sir flipped me over and started fucking me :( Luckily it was fairly short but still hardly enjoyable. I have to admit, we talked about doing this a few days before, and I agreed, because I was horny at the time and it sounded kind of hot... but it isn't when it actually happens. I consider it a positive experience though, because it felt like another step in my submission to Sir... being fucked when he wants to fuck me, regardless of how I feel about it. It certainly made me feel more like I'm just a slave being used for his Master's pleasure, his property to use and abuse.

Oh and also got a hard farewell beating right after that... again closing with a classic: the evil cane! It left some nice marks as a reminder of my time in London.

It was a really really good stay, had some good scenes, of course the downside of being into so many kink things is never having enough time to do them all! So there's plenty on the wishlist for next time, as always.

A Christmas miracle!

First of all, I've been to London earlier this month. There will be a fairly substantial blog entry about my kinky adventures there soon. This entry is about something else.

In the past month or so I've been chatting to a guy interested in bondage, and more specifically kidnap scenarios that involve being gagged and lots of tape. I told him about the material I have, showed him some pics, discussed some scenarios... after all that he was very keen on meeting up with me.

Last Sunday we finally made it happen, and pretty much everything that could go wrong, went wrong. And that includes a third party walking in on us (luckily, there wasn't much to see yet). We had very limited time as well, so we had some very simple and fairly short play in my bedroom.

I secured him to a chair, handcuffed at the back. I applied some duct tape to his mouth and his legs. Added a blindfold as well. With that all set, I could explore his body and see how he reacted to my touch. And he reacted beautifully. The pre-cum was flowing freely, and it was a beautiful sight seeing it through his white briefs. I loved teasing his cock through the fabric and seeing his briefs get wetter and wetter.

I untied him and let him masturbate, and on special request I wore my balaclava (he seemed to like that a lot). And with that happy ending I had to let him go.

Despite it being so short, and the false start or two, it was actually really enjoyable. He's a fun guy to play with, and interesting to talk to, so I hope to see him again. We already made some vague meet up plans for next month, let's see how things will be then :)

On a more personal note, this was the first time I played with a "new" guy in well over a year, and since it went so well, it was a real boost to my self-confidence. For the past two years I've been somewhat avoiding meeting up with new people because I felt I wouldn't be good enough, both as a top or a sub. Now that I (finally!) had a good experience, I'm starting to have a more positive outlook on things. If everything goes well with this guy, I'll be able to develop my skills further and get more confident in them (for example, I complained to the guy that I'm rubbish at rope bondage because I can't find anyone who wants to be a model for a newbie, he just replied "well, practice on me then!").

We'll see how things develop further next year but at the very least I'm ending a somewhat kink-dry year on a positive note :)

blog weirdness

Last month (April), I had the most amount of visitors ever on this blog! Except... I noticed some weird things on my stats page. Most of my visitors seem to come from Russian sites that have nothing to do with the content of my blog.

The month before that, I already disabled non-captcha-verified comments, because I got a spam message at least once a day. But now there's this. I doesn't hurt my blog, but for a stat-obsessed person like me, it's annoying that I can't see where my real visitors are coming from.

I was wondering if any bloggers who read this are experiencing this as well?

Anyway, thanks for the people who still have my blog on their reading list. Special shoutout to MetalBondNYC.com and bondageforthebigman.blogspot.com. I still get most of my visitors from their site. Thanks guys!

Preparing a "normal" blog entry next, I spent a lot of time in chastity the last two months, and it was a rather...interesting experience!

February London visit

It was time for another visit to my Master, last time I was in London was July last year. And that wasn't the best of visits to be honest... so time for another go.

On the evening of my arrival, I was treated with some face slapping and gut punching!!! :( Yes, that's how my Master shows how happy he is to see me. To be honest, I'm starting to like the gut punching, in a "look how though I can be!" kind of way. Even more when it's in public, ha. And obviously I got the necessary before-bed beating, something I usually hate the first few nights but always end up loving it and begging for more (though this time it sadly didn't happen every night!)

A notable beating was the one with the big wooden brush. Having been on the receiving end a few times already, I still hate it and I consider it to be the worst spanking instrument in my Master's arsenal by far. It hurts (duh) but the impact is really bad and the pain lingers longer as well, which makes repeated blows really really really uncomfortable. So yeah, my reaction to it wasn't that of a good boy and I got some corner time afterwards as well.

One evening I wanted to surprise him by being a pup by the time he got home from work. This was only half a success; that stupid pup tail kept falling out, I tried securing it with rope but it didn't work, and it fell out very shortly after he came home. As a tail-less pup, it just wasn't the same for me and I didn't get into the pup-headspace the way I had on previous occasions. I don't really consider myself a pup but there is certainly a part of me that likes it.

I was invited by TSkinBoot on Thursday, and... well, I could write all about it, but a video says more than a thousand words, no? See it here, and decide for yourself how good this scene was (spoiler: SO good).
Apart from that though, it was nice spending time with him, he is a valued friend and it was nice to just relax a bit after the scene. I mean, we usually meet up at a club, which is nice of course but meeting a friend at home is always more... more, you know? So I was very happy he invited me.
Bonus picture:

Friday, my Master invited some boys over in the afternoon... but I was not allowed to have any fun, heh. I was mummified to a chair, and stayed like that for about 3 hours, while Master and the boys did their thing. It wasn't the most comfortable experience, but if I had a pillow for my back, I think I could've held out another hour or two. 

After that it was time go to to Fetishbound... but I almost literally had to drag Master along, even though one of the boys was keen to go as well. In any case, -I- had fun, hehe. It was a nice night, lots of hot guys (especially skinheads!) about, I got to spank the other boy for a bit, I got spanked myself, and Master belted me :O The poor boy seeing this was cowering in fear, "oh no, oh no!", but quite honestly, compared to the beating I got with the brush earlier that week, the belt was nothing. I mean, it was not nothing, it was actually quite fun being hit by it. So yeah, it was a fun night out. Oh and liked wearing this rubber shirt I found in Master's house, it went well with my usual boots-camo trousers combination.

Saturday was Valentine's day (bweurk), I went to Collared in the evening, in general it wasn't that interesting as Fetishbound, but Tskin did a really nice rope suspension on me, and later he tied up a super-cute boy, he looked so sweet and innocent, yet some pervert tied him up and made him lick his boots... poor boy. (I might have had a little crush on him).

Sunday evening it was time for another scene... I set up the new stocks, then was locked in them, hooded, electro on my balls and (locked) cock, and wax poured over my back :( It hurt! More than when I experimented with wax myself ages ago hehe. I didn't like the electro much either, so this really felt more like a punishment than anything else.

There was also one memorable (in a good way) piss play scene. Master was in the sofa watching tv, I was on the floor in front of him. I ask him if I can use the toilet. He says no. Instead, he uses his foot to push down on my tummy, making that feeling of having to piss even worse. He continues doing that for a bit, then finally he takes me to the bathroom, and orders me to piss in the bathtub. Now, I have a very shy bladder, which means I really can't pee when someone's near me or watching me. He just continues to tease me, showing me pictures and videos of piss play, making me drink a big glass of coke, and eventually pissing on me, with me having to drink it. I am absolutely bursting but I still can't pee!! He threatens to send me to bed like this. He leaves the bathroom for 2 seconds, and, yes, I start peeing from the moment he left. I was on my knees and he orders me to stand so he can see me piss, but I can't, need to be on my knees heh. Then I pissed for a good minute or something, that felt good hehe. Master was disappointed and next time I'll really have to pee in front of him or suffer the consequences:O

That was about all the play I got. Apart from us suffering from a cold at different stages of my stay, which impacted what we did in terms of play, it was a really good visit. Compared to the one last summer I felt much more relaxed and at home, and the feeling that I actually have a place there. We didn't do everything on our wishlist (there was supposed to be rope play and cigar play for example) but that's something we can do next time...

Also, I am still wearing my chastity device, I'm in week 4 now of continuous wear... I wasn't allowed to cum when I was in London, but I did get to cum (with permission) at home. The key is still in London though! (and I think he actually lost it...) So who knows when I'll get unlocked :( Evil.