fantastic plastic

Still locked up. 48 hours, but it feels so much longer. Still, I'm determined to wear it until at least thursday, and maybe longer.

I do unlock myself to take a shower and clean the cb6000 though. It gets dirty/smelly after a day, and I really want it to be as clean as possible. I know most people use Q-tips for cleaning, but it just doesn't seem enough for me.

Also, last night I "cheated" and unlocked myself for some edging. Is it cheating though? I don't cum, I just masturbate for a few minutes, until I feel I'm about to cum, then I stop and lock myself back up. Although a big drop of pre-cum did come out...

And the night before that, I briefly switched to my cb3000 (it's a "fake" I bought on ebay, but it still works). I got the points of intrigue for it, and used the smallest one. It fit quite well, but at some point, the whole device slipped off! It's not the first time this happens, I just can't seem to find a good balance between a comfortable fit and a secure fit. It's why I prefer the cb6000, which fits me perfectly.

In general, the longer I stay locked up, the more extreme my fantasies become. I fantasize about being permantly collared, permantly chastized, and tattooed and branded as a slave. It really turns me on (just writing this makes my dick throb in its cage), but thinking about it rationally, it's something I'd never do or allow in real life. Unless I really find a person who I'll be with for the rest of my life, and who can really bring out my inner slave, then I'd probably allow it. It's certainly one of my deepest desires to be a 24/7 slave, but that desire certainly clashes with other parts of my personality. Oh well, it's just a fantasy that's unlike to ever come true, nothing to worry about.

A month or so ago, I made an account on xtube (rauberinchains). Didn't put much on it myself, just some old pics. There are already enough wanking vids on it, I'm sure they don't need me for that. But there are some good bondage and chastity-related videos on it, and plenty of other guys who are locked up. I spend a lot of time on it recently...I know I shouldn't, but it's so tempting. I'm sure I'll get tired of watching porn at some point...right?

being horny and "enforced" chastity

Lately, I started wearing my cb6000 again for longer periods. Since I'm single, there's no-one controlling me, and I can wear it as much (or as little) as I like. I have to admit, most of the time I use it as a way to prolong my horniness. It usually goes like this:

1) I feel somewhat horny

2) I put on the cb6000 (and sometimes other bdsm-related toys)

3) I watch/read all the porn I want

4) after a couple of hours, I unlock myself, start masturbating, and get an orgasm in less than a minute

5) cb6000 and everything else goes back into the box, until I feel horny again.

This suits me fine of course, but sometimes I want to wear it longer. It's hard to explain why. Obviously, I love being in it. But why? Because it makes me feel more submissive? Because it just feels good? Because it means I can feel horny for days? Or, something I thought of today: because it's a challenge. I masturbate (what a surprise eh?) about five times a week I guess. That might not be a whole lot, but to me, it's still an addiction. I really can't go more than 3 days without thinking "hmm, I haven't masturbated for a while. I should do it tonight!". And if I don't, I start feeling bad. Not in a depressed way, but...I guess masturbating is my biggest stress-release. I really NEED it. This need is why I consider it an addiction. I know most people will disagree with me on that, and say that sexual relief is as normal as eating and drinking, but, to me, it's different.

Anyway, my need to orgasm is also what makes it a challenge to wear a chastity device for more than a couple of days. My absolute record has been 11 days, which is something I'm still proud of. I didn't do it alone I guess, a friend acted as my keyholder (long story), but I still stayed in the device longer than she suggested. It was weird being "free" again, and the first orgasm after that wasn't even very enjoyable to me. Sounds weird right? I was like both my penis and my mind had forgotten that an orgasm is supposed to be enjoyable. It was a very strange experience.

That was two years ago. Since then I haven't been locked up longer than 5 days, usually just one or two. This week, I wore it from thursday afternoon until saturday afternoon (48 hours). While I was masturbating, I told myself "and now I'm going to wear this until tuesday evening". Of course, I tell myself a lot of things just before masturbating, but this time, I fully plan on doing it. It's "only" 3 days and 3 nights, but the longest consecutive period I'll be in it since 2008. Depending on how I feel about it, I might prolong it until thursday afternoon, to make a full 5 days. Now THAT would be a challenge.